Looking at the past ... its been a year since then ...

Yay !

Its been more than a year I re-started writing something ... and I am re-re-starting now ... surely, I was either too busy or got bored of this writing asap ... second choice seems more morally correct ... (morality is good only upto a certain level... e.g. Israel cannot, sure as heavens, declare why and what it attacked Syria for - try teach them doctoral levels of morality !!)

As promised (to myself), I am looking back ... back the post I wrote about a year ago ... boy oh' boy, I was in trouble ... no funding - thats fine ! ... no GTF - thats fine too !! ... but no research of my liking !!??!? hurts as deep as Grand canyon ...

I fumbled, fainted, cried, laughed the laughters of sarcasm for those stupid comments of "you-should-have-done-a-simpler-project-to-score-more-points" bullshit but none-the-less carried myself out of that door, closed it behind me and never knocked again ... I had learnt my lessons ... and the lesson was a simple one ... dont get depressed if you run out of doors to knock ... you can always exit the building and go to the next ... many of us dont even realise (at least I didn't, at first) that doors end only if you think of a building you are in ... you can always knock on the main door, get the hell out of that bulding and knock knock the other one ... there always is a plathora of doors in the next building ... save you get out of the first ... I did ... and I feel good ...

I cant write a whole yeat in my blog ... (0r can I .. ) ... but in any case I won't ... because nothing has changed since then ... I am still craving for a better future and present seems a bit cranky ... never mind though because I still have enough left to crave for better ... craving has become way too easier because of that hand I can hold for eternity ... so many people and things cheer me up ... things like this:

if things fail to move on as you had wished, they would move on as God wishes those to ...

Cheers ! (to me)