At times, I feel, being a cold hearted keeps you weeping for memories.. 'Cause memories, good or ghastly, make you shed tears especially when you are unaccompanied.. well, not exactly " shed tears ", but definitely make you gloomy.. I believe good memories are to be cherished (I keep on telling this to a friend of mine !).. But once in a while, I (being a Human!) dont tempt to tag along with it..
When I remember those Punyatale raste I used to ride my bike on.. those hangouts I used to spend time at.. those Wada-paavs with extra chutney and chaha's with a kami doodh.. those Tekdi's I used to climb (and try climbing in a single Go and never ever happened so.. :D ).. friends, Durga, Belya, cricket, football, vivas, practicals, mass-bunks, proxies and scores of others.. Cherishable definitely!! .. But the mere fact that I am not (and I won't be) enjoying that part of life again makes me feel down for a moment or so.. And I truly hate that moment..
I can see only one solution to it.. "dont think about it when it starts catching a wrong nerve!" .. Not that I hate thinking about my arresting past.. but I keep away from it.. on purpose.. to make sure that I don't feel my present is not that beautiful.. I understand it is not (Except for some half a dozen 'exceptional' things! ).. But I want to pretend it is.. becuase thats the only way I insinuate to make my future as beautiful as my past..
Sometimes A cold heart ..
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Thoughts !
And it begins to rain in here.. they ask for money.. so do I.. and codes with curley brackets..
some without raincoats.. excitement begins for the date.. new flowers to bloom..
A or A+ .. गणपती यायची पण वेळ झाली.. red colors in sky.. death of this dry heat.. for i=0, i++ : All roads are always wet and slippery..
and I always trust her to hold my hand..
i < infinity .......
some without raincoats.. excitement begins for the date.. new flowers to bloom..
A or A+ .. गणपती यायची पण वेळ झाली.. red colors in sky.. death of this dry heat.. for i=0, i++ : All roads are always wet and slippery..
and I always trust her to hold my hand..
i < infinity .......
Friday, August 11, 2006
Reason to keep ' the one you know who ' alive and missing !
The whole damn country (including the deserts and mountains) was bombed and burnt... but still ' The one you know who' escaped... he still makes video tapes and such a promoter of his own videos he is, that he sends those to market for Free!!! …
' The one you know who ' has masterminded thrillers so capable of captivating the world that even M Night Shyamalan and Quentin Tarantino would fail to create better ones together… and its not even a fiction or a fantasy… Most of the world (with kind of similar people like me) doesn’t want to see his no thrillers, not action movies… we don’t want to watch his video tapes and don’t want to listen to his pronouncements… the world just wants him eliminated, period !
But then the question is… why is he still alive… is he really alive… is it a failure of those flying warships to bombard that whole (empty) country and still miss the most prominent Gory Thriller Director they were aiming for ?
I don’t think so…
I am always tempted to think that he is still alive because a few really really really influential communities (like Politicians !!) want him so… cause every other Drama that takes place on the face of the humanism, gets linked to him… one way or the other… but the real route that drama follows is not a direct one but through someplace else… that’s not his own…
the ‘ Place ’ never identifies ' The one you know who ' its own, and claims him an unfriendly, hostile verity… claims that its trying to get him with all its forces and powers and fighting to stop his evil thrillers… (And obviously never gets it!) … Why? The reason’s too obvious… the Place is itself behind it… if ' The one you know who ' is the Director, ‘ The Place ’ is the Producer… But it won’t admit it… Neither the strong Community that I just mentioned… They just need ' The one you know who ' to cover up for ‘ The Place ’ … I doubt if ' The one you know who ' even is alive…!! But he ain’t dead for sure because he has to take all the blames even if he ain’t responsible…
After all, every dirty thing has got to round up at Politics… because even though all 26 arrested were of Pakistani (The Place) origin, Pakistan claims it helped unearth the plot (bullshit..) Who do they blame, then ?? The answer is too simple… ' The one you know who ' … !!!
When would the world ever see the reality… When would the world be rejecting these make-believe acts… Would this dirty Politics be ever purged? Would ‘ The one you know who ’ be eradicated once for all and others exposed?? Stay tuned to CNN and you might face the virtuality…
' The one you know who ' has masterminded thrillers so capable of captivating the world that even M Night Shyamalan and Quentin Tarantino would fail to create better ones together… and its not even a fiction or a fantasy… Most of the world (with kind of similar people like me) doesn’t want to see his no thrillers, not action movies… we don’t want to watch his video tapes and don’t want to listen to his pronouncements… the world just wants him eliminated, period !
But then the question is… why is he still alive… is he really alive… is it a failure of those flying warships to bombard that whole (empty) country and still miss the most prominent Gory Thriller Director they were aiming for ?
I don’t think so…
I am always tempted to think that he is still alive because a few really really really influential communities (like Politicians !!) want him so… cause every other Drama that takes place on the face of the humanism, gets linked to him… one way or the other… but the real route that drama follows is not a direct one but through someplace else… that’s not his own…
the ‘ Place ’ never identifies ' The one you know who ' its own, and claims him an unfriendly, hostile verity… claims that its trying to get him with all its forces and powers and fighting to stop his evil thrillers… (And obviously never gets it!) … Why? The reason’s too obvious… the Place is itself behind it… if ' The one you know who ' is the Director, ‘ The Place ’ is the Producer… But it won’t admit it… Neither the strong Community that I just mentioned… They just need ' The one you know who ' to cover up for ‘ The Place ’ … I doubt if ' The one you know who ' even is alive…!! But he ain’t dead for sure because he has to take all the blames even if he ain’t responsible…
After all, every dirty thing has got to round up at Politics… because even though all 26 arrested were of Pakistani (The Place) origin, Pakistan claims it helped unearth the plot (bullshit..) Who do they blame, then ?? The answer is too simple… ' The one you know who ' … !!!
When would the world ever see the reality… When would the world be rejecting these make-believe acts… Would this dirty Politics be ever purged? Would ‘ The one you know who ’ be eradicated once for all and others exposed?? Stay tuned to CNN and you might face the virtuality…
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Amazing(ly crazy) Americans !
Since when I landed in the United State of America (with an almost fake smile verbalizing ‘Welcome to the United States’), I have always wondered about how amazing there Americans are… And about a common tendency always seen in any average American: to leave on the edges of everything…!
I have seldom seen a normalized or averaged pattern of behavior of these people around… I don’t mean to judge good’s and bad’s by saying that, but it’s most certainly extraño… whatever these people tend to achieve, either the goals are abnormal or the means to achieve those are…!
Abundance of everything is probably the best explanation for the facts above… and that’s the same explanation for why these people tend to extremities… when it comes to buying cars, they detest small cars… what everyone wishes for is a monster truck… when it comes to buying clothes, boys don’t wear pink/red/orange like flashy colors and girls don’t prefer the rest… and if someone (like me!) puts on any of those colors unknowingly, people don’t tend to think of this ‘unknowingly’ factor but rather prefer to conclude about extreme sexual orientation of the one… crazy !!
People here don’t often tend to visit their families throughout the year except on Thanksgiving Day… and on that specific day, every person in this country gets crazy to meet his/her family… I don’t understand why do they have to have a special day to meet families… any other day is as good as a Thanksgiving Day… but still that’s the only day most of the parents get to see their children… crazy !!
Sports… and there is no end to this list if we start making “crazy!!” notes on… Supposedly these people don’t tend to enjoy sports which are universally accepted… and more importantly, which look like Sports and not Battles… cause what is appreciated in a game here is not skills or reflexes or anything that goes with a typical sport, but only muscle… So many times I have heard that cricket, soccer, tennis are no-games because people don’t prove their muscles there…! … These people would probably start liking Soccer if Zidane and Figo start kicking each other in balls instead of a soccer ball and penalties are agreed only if one of the players lies unconscious... As crazy as it gets !!
Moral of the story is that this nation has grown extreme in everything… extreme science, extreme cars, extreme sports, extreme machines, extreme culture… there are obviously no good’s and bad’s as I said that can be judges by an outsider like me… more importantly because these extreme habits have often proved survival instincts for them in history… Abundance of resources has always proven to be a root and support to their extreme manners cause its not what they have but they enjoy constitutes the abundance… !
I have seldom seen a normalized or averaged pattern of behavior of these people around… I don’t mean to judge good’s and bad’s by saying that, but it’s most certainly extraño… whatever these people tend to achieve, either the goals are abnormal or the means to achieve those are…!
Abundance of everything is probably the best explanation for the facts above… and that’s the same explanation for why these people tend to extremities… when it comes to buying cars, they detest small cars… what everyone wishes for is a monster truck… when it comes to buying clothes, boys don’t wear pink/red/orange like flashy colors and girls don’t prefer the rest… and if someone (like me!) puts on any of those colors unknowingly, people don’t tend to think of this ‘unknowingly’ factor but rather prefer to conclude about extreme sexual orientation of the one… crazy !!
People here don’t often tend to visit their families throughout the year except on Thanksgiving Day… and on that specific day, every person in this country gets crazy to meet his/her family… I don’t understand why do they have to have a special day to meet families… any other day is as good as a Thanksgiving Day… but still that’s the only day most of the parents get to see their children… crazy !!
Sports… and there is no end to this list if we start making “crazy!!” notes on… Supposedly these people don’t tend to enjoy sports which are universally accepted… and more importantly, which look like Sports and not Battles… cause what is appreciated in a game here is not skills or reflexes or anything that goes with a typical sport, but only muscle… So many times I have heard that cricket, soccer, tennis are no-games because people don’t prove their muscles there…! … These people would probably start liking Soccer if Zidane and Figo start kicking each other in balls instead of a soccer ball and penalties are agreed only if one of the players lies unconscious... As crazy as it gets !!
Moral of the story is that this nation has grown extreme in everything… extreme science, extreme cars, extreme sports, extreme machines, extreme culture… there are obviously no good’s and bad’s as I said that can be judges by an outsider like me… more importantly because these extreme habits have often proved survival instincts for them in history… Abundance of resources has always proven to be a root and support to their extreme manners cause its not what they have but they enjoy constitutes the abundance… !
Monday, August 07, 2006
I agree, finally !
And it took me a day at work plus a whole weekend to make up my mind and say No... Really, its always Heros who make Great stories and not the stories that make Great Heros...
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Yes-to-No
There are a number of occasions in everyone's life, I am sure, where we come to a decision of saying No but never actually do so… And the reason almost always is a fear of loosing something not-good-to-be-lost...
Exactly in a same situation I am and still failing to announce a No as yet… Price at stake: my job…
That reminds me of a story… A story that I was told repeatedly as a child… I failed to understand the substance of that story as a matter of practicality till I have started coming across these Yes-to-No situations… I am still under the impression that trivial particulars linked to influential people & great leaders are deeply embroidered for commons… But sooner or later, I’ll know why!
Coming back to the story - a simple story… of a child… of a student and a teacher… of commands and retaliations… of Yes’ and No’s… A student (just like me!) was once asked to clean-up “shenganchi tarfale” as he was pointed tossing those in class, by his teacher… A reply was a courageous No… why a No? ‘Cause he didn’t do the mess… someone else did…! He had to take a beating from his teacher, but never did clear the mess which was not his responsibility at first place… must have taken a lot of guts… (Esp. with conformist Indian schools of 19th century!)
I always thought that the story has become legendary because the child was none other than a great Indian leader, scholar, Nationalist, revolutionary and freedom-fighter लोकमान्य बाळ गंगाधर टिळक… But seems like I was wrong (as most of the times!)… The story is legendary by itself for a Yes-to-No factor in it… It really takes a lot to give a No when you are afraid of loosing something… and it’s not a person that made this story so celebrated but it’s his personality that did… Yes-to-No personality…
Well… I gotto run somewhere cutting this short… Actually, to make somebody believe it’s even worth a job to say Yes-to-a-definite-No…!!
Exactly in a same situation I am and still failing to announce a No as yet… Price at stake: my job…
That reminds me of a story… A story that I was told repeatedly as a child… I failed to understand the substance of that story as a matter of practicality till I have started coming across these Yes-to-No situations… I am still under the impression that trivial particulars linked to influential people & great leaders are deeply embroidered for commons… But sooner or later, I’ll know why!
Coming back to the story - a simple story… of a child… of a student and a teacher… of commands and retaliations… of Yes’ and No’s… A student (just like me!) was once asked to clean-up “shenganchi tarfale” as he was pointed tossing those in class, by his teacher… A reply was a courageous No… why a No? ‘Cause he didn’t do the mess… someone else did…! He had to take a beating from his teacher, but never did clear the mess which was not his responsibility at first place… must have taken a lot of guts… (Esp. with conformist Indian schools of 19th century!)
I always thought that the story has become legendary because the child was none other than a great Indian leader, scholar, Nationalist, revolutionary and freedom-fighter लोकमान्य बाळ गंगाधर टिळक… But seems like I was wrong (as most of the times!)… The story is legendary by itself for a Yes-to-No factor in it… It really takes a lot to give a No when you are afraid of loosing something… and it’s not a person that made this story so celebrated but it’s his personality that did… Yes-to-No personality…
Well… I gotto run somewhere cutting this short… Actually, to make somebody believe it’s even worth a job to say Yes-to-a-definite-No…!!
Miracles !!
- Part-I
Declared Reason: Jesus weeps blood after meeting Sister Anna Hadija Ali every Wednesday...
I do believe in miracles... its only that I dont distinguish the same between miracles and non-miracles as everyone does... I dont find Weeping blood, meeting with Jesus or Jesus' weeping blood miraculous, but what I do is that Sister Anna Hadija Ali weeps blood...
Why ? 'Cause I can understand why Jesus weeps blood and why at all people see Jesus (there are millions of examples of Hallucinations, in medicine, that can explain it ! )... What I fail to understand is how Sister Anna Hadija Ali weeps blood... Is it just an imitation... ? But then she has to be a God herself to imitate other Gods... which she definitely aint ! ... So it still remains a miracle to me how she does that... and why she does that... and till we don't meet Jesus and ask about how's and why's, we never would be able to get an answer to that...
True Reason: -------------------------? (Miracle, may be! )
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- Part-II
Declared Reason: I have been meeting some Blog Gods recently...
True Reason: --------------------------? (Miracle, definitely! )
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